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CryingCarnations

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Alright, it's here. 2019.

A few of you have been aware that a rebranding was on its way, but even fewer knew the full reasoning behind this. You guys have been around, supporting me and my art, for a good while. You've known me as RoxieTheDerp. A little curly-haired gremlin named Katherine that likes women and rhythm games. And while I could say I've been happy, I'm not. And I haven't been for a while.

Some people have followed my art way before this page even existed. This is copy-and-paste for my social media platforms, sure. But it's true for each and every one. Before I was truly established as RoxieTheDerp, my art expressed a lot of gender dysphoria and a lot of confusion with how I was feeling. I never really knew (or moreso, I didn't want to know) how to address the issue. I just pressed it down and ignored it.

Recently, I've gotten tired of it. I'm tired of being someone and something I'm not. I'm tired of hyper-feminizing in a desperate attempt to convince myself I don't feel how I do. But I'm done with it. Completely.

That's why this post exists. Meet the artist--again. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm not being "Roxie". I'm not being "Katherine." I identify as a male now and I chose to go by Jasper. While "CryingCarnations" isn't the manliest name, I feel it fits my aesthetic without being completely reliant on a gendered name. It even leaves room open for a shortened nickname (I'm sure others can be thought of but I thought Carnie was awful cute myself) like my old pen name did.

I'm aware there's a good chance my following of 100 or so, which was such a monumentous number for me to hit, is going to dwindle down with this. I've come to peace with the fact that not everyone will accept me as a transgender male. And that's fine. If they want to leave, I've got no reason to stop them on their way out.

To everyone that's been here through this journey, to new fans, to old fans, to people that are hovering over dislike-- Happy New Years.

(Hi, this was typed up on New Year's Eve. It had to wait til today to be posted here because it took me that long to get my name changed.)
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Hey there. We're gonna have a nice little talk about my commissions.


Llama Emoji-46 (This and That) First and foremost, PayPal payments Llama Emoji-46 (This and That) 


My commissions are for sale through my commissions widget for points.
However, I'm willing to accept payments through PayPal as well.
The simple fact is, payments with points are a burden on buyer and seller.
The buyer pays more for the points than the dollar amount the seller will receive.
There's also a two week processing time and a $1 processing fee to get the money
deposited into my PayPal. For future reference, this is how my prices will transfer.

Llama Emoji-03 (Sparkles) [V1] Points to USD cheat sheet Llama Emoji-03 (Sparkles) [V1] 

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Sketch Bust: 300 points or $3.00 USD

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Lined Bust: 500 points or $5.00 USD

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Full Bust: 1000 points or $10.00 USD

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Sketch Half-body: 500 points or $5.00 USD

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Lined Half-body: 700 points or $7.00 USD

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Full Half-body: 1500 points or $15.00 USD

**OTHER COMMISSIONS COMING SOON**

Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] What I will draw Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] 

Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Anything like you've seen in my gallery
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! "Suggestive" pictures
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Non-sexualized child characters
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! OCs!
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Attempt to draw furries
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Mild gore
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! A little more intense gore if the "blood" isn't blood
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Characters from popular media (Anime, games, etc.)
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Pairings! Couples are cute (Especially as chibis wink wonk)
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Most everything that isn't stated in the next list!

Llama Emoji-06 (Depress) [V1]What I will not draw Llama Emoji-06 (Depress) [V1] 

Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Sexualized child characters (No suggestive lolis or shotas)
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! No hentai! Whether or not I get to a point where I'm
    comfortable drawing it, I refuse to be paid for it
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Full nudity. My line stops at roughly the undies. I MIGHT POSSIBLY DRAW A BUTT.
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Bara. It's nothing against it, I just can't draw manly men
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Recolors. I don't mind drawing with another character used for reference, but
    I'm not gonna draw like Edward Elric with blue hair and call it an OC
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! Animals. I'm awful at it! ;v;
Dot Bullet (Black) - F2U! No death and intense gore 

Llama Emoji 27 (Awesome) [V2] General guidelines Llama Emoji 27 (Awesome) [V2] 

Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! It's up to you to give me refs for OCs!
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Depending on the time of year, I might take longer to draw.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Expect your drawing within a week (at the very latest)
    unless I tell you otherwise!
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! If you want art for adoptables, discuss with me first and
    I'll gladly strike a deal!
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! If a drawing contains more than one character, the price
    will be adjusted as such:
        Original price + Half of original price(per extra character) = New price! 
    So, two characters in a sketched half-body drawing would be:
        500 points + 250 points = 750 points or $7.50 USD
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! 
I can refuse to draw whatever I wish.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Every drawing has what I'd call a "warranty."
    If something in the drawing is wrong, I will redraw that particular part upon request.
    This is offered once upon the completion of a drawing.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! You may not use any of my drawings for a monetary gain unless previously
    discussed with me.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! You may not cover up my signature or my small "roxiethederp" in the corner.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Reposting's fine. That's why I ask that my watermark's left intact so people can find the
    original artist rather than you having to credit every single time you post it.
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! Credit's always appreciated, however! I'm still a small artist and exposure is helpful. 
Dot Bullet (Peach) - F2U! If you ever have a question about getting a commission, you can always send me a note
    and I'll be glad to answer. When in doubt, ask. I make special exceptions sometimes.
 
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I don't know I anyone particularly cares but I felt like sharing if anyone felt like prying into my personal life.
Without going into too much detail, my mental state is not so good right now. I'm just really stressed out and feeling depressed about a lot of things but I am attempting to stay positive. I've really only been focusing on drawing the prizes for the raffle. They're coming, I promise. I want to finish up AkaneKyoko's 5th one before I go on posting the other winners' drawings.
I started up the Valentine's sale thinking it would mellow me out at the prospect of more money, but it's just not working out that way. I know it's only been a day but I already find myself hopeless that nobody's going to buy any of them.
I'm just finding it hard to be positive about anything and that's why I'm in sort of a slum and I'm not drawing like I used to. That's why.
I don't know. Just needed to vent a bit. Or whine, I guess.
I'm trying to get over it and just keep going with things but I guess I need time.
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  Llama Emoji-39 (Eager) [V2]~I'm doing a raffle!~Llama Emoji-39 (Eager) [V2] 


Prizes:


First Place:

~1 Half-body drawing
~2 Chibis OR 1 Half-body drawing
~2 Bust drawings OR 2 Chibis
Llama Emoji-21 (Speechless) [V1] 

Second Place:

~2 Chibis OR 1 Half-body drawing
~1 Bust drawing OR 1 Chibi
Llama Emoji-46 (This and That) 

Third Place:

~1 Bust drawing OR 1 Chibi
Llama Emoji-05 (Flower Sparkles) [V1] 

Runner-Up Prizes:

~1 Bargain Doodle OR
 1 Even-More-Of-A-Bargain Doodle
Llama Emoji 35 (Desire or Want Something) [V2] 
Runner-Up Prizes will only be drawn for if 40+ people enter.
Starting at 40, ONE Runner-Up winner will be chosen.
Every additional 10 people to enter will add another Runner-Up winner.
I do this because I'm sentimental and I want everyone to have a good chance at winning.


Here's the rules for entry:

1) Must favorite this journal.
That's it!
Llama Emoji-01 (Laughing) [V1] 


However! If you want additional chances for prizes:

1) Watching me gives you +1 chance to win.
2) Making a journal and linking back to this one
also gives you +1 chance to win!
Please comment with a link to your journal!

Things to keep in mind:

1) The rules of my commissions apply to these prizes.
Refer to: Let's Talk About Commissions!

2) I am a student. We've recently returned to school, we're preparing
for the ACT and EOC testing. Be patient. I will deliver prizes.

3) I also have some weekends where I'm unable to draw, meaning I can't work
on digital drawings and that will slow me down. Again, patience.

4) If I find out you're using multiple accounts to enter, all of your entries are void.

5) All of my watchers are NOT automatically entered, you have to favorite.

6) This is all for fun, so please don't get upset if you don't win.

7) I'm bad at making contests and stuff I'm sorry ;^;


With all of that being said, have fun!

Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] 

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Haha this is so dorky but I wanna do it 
Head desk-  Forkke by NeoSlashott

Kanaya Sewing by Sugarkins

Sleepy by TheCosPig

This was MyWeekThroughArt. How was yours, Siontix , alexia99hunter , floofeymarshmallow ?
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